Monday, April 28, 2008

Power of A Mistake

He wasn't God,
he wasn't perfect.
He made a small mistake,
and it was magnified.
He could hear laughter,
and words of anger.
It made him feel inferior.

His heart was pricked,
and was bleeding
but no one could see.
Where is the magnifying glass?
He was vivid,
yet seemed wisplike.
His mistake was wisplike,
yet seemed vivid.
All he wanted to was
to make all these come true.

Sunday, April 27, 2008

A Life Not Known

He had many questions,
but no one cared.
He had emotions,
but no one saw.
He needed support,
but no one bothered.
A need for flexibility,
but it was ignored.
Everything was rigid,
nothing ever changed.
He was stranded in the universe,
he belonged no where,
not even this world.
He was hidden behind a veil,
no one could see beyond,
nor could he see through.
All he could see was
the world crushing down on him.

Dissatisfactions With School

I attend a private school...and it is a big school. About 1000 people in my year. >_> And it's supposed to be a selective school, we have to go through tests to get admitted into the school. Still, I don't think the standard is any higher. Our curriculum is supposed to be more challenging than the public school ones, but it's still fairly easy to me. Not bragging. But it's really a boring curriculum, we have to memorize so many stuff just to be able to do well in exams. Meaningless really. And it's very repetitive. We're doing 2 curricula, 1 private school one and another public school one. It's really more or less the same, so it's like we're learning the same thing twice. And all our homework, it's mainly copying. Teachers give us the answer, we just have to copy the answers into our books. Don't have to think at all. Really, I hate it. So curriculum is boring...doesn't matter much, but extracurricular...it's even worse. We have about 51 extracurriculars, but each person is only allowed to join one! Ridiculous. I mean, why have so many choices then? Some clubs really only have 20+ members, it's pathetic. The facilities are bad too. Only 2 fans in each class, and each class has about 60 people. It's really suffocating in it. They haven't changed anything for 12 years, so I heard. Gahh and we have to pay for the school fees. No idea where all our school fees go to.

The way we have our classes...we stay in the classroom, teachers come to the classroom. So it's not a floating class. Not interesting at all. Very routine. Our timetables don't change every week. We have the same one again and again. Yeah, repetitive again. Classes are held in a lecture kind of way, students aren't expected to give inputs. There are too many people in the class anyway. Exams...that's the worst of all I think. It's like we're having exams everyday, I don't see the point of that. It's repetitive too, we have a test for this chapter this time, and the next time, we're tested on the same thing again. And we only get 25 minutes for break. Seriously, what can we do in 25 minutes? It's like really rushing, 2hrs of lessons, 25 minutes break. 2hrs lessons again, 25 minutes break. Then 2hrs 40 mins of lessons, school ends. It kinda lasts too long I think. It's from 7:30am - 3:10pm. We have 10 periods a day, 40mins for each periods. You won't believe how many subjects we're taking. More than 13!!! All subjects are mandatory. It's stupid. One word to describe my school. Simple enough.